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What is your worst character flaw?
Apr. 23rd, 2005 12:33 am*sighs*
If I must admit it...
I am a creature of whims. A creature of impulse. I do what feels right, right now. I rarely think of consequences or what the outcome of my actions will be, though the no consequences prompt of two weeks ago forced me to think about what consequences might be of an impulsive action I was considering.
I, of course, followed said prompt up quickly with an impulsive action, the consequences of which I gave no thought to whatsoever. Luckily, that one turned out...well, though there are and will be consequences which I will eventually have to face but which others are having to deal with at this time. Still, I hold out hope that 'twill all end well and bring all involved a measure of happiness that has ofttimes been lacking in all of our lives.
But that is beside the point and doesn't speak to what makes the trait so bad. Other recent impulsive actions have not boded so well toward a happy ending. I do things that seem good, even beneficial at the time. I don't listen to those who advise against it. I breeze through their counsel and do as I please and then...people get hurt. Or the potential exists for people to get hurt. People who are innocent of any wrongdoing and deserve only good things in their lives, who deserve to be cherished and adored...and I sweep them up and into my world and take as I please and then...then I realize that by the very act of doing so, others have been hurt and I have put all of these people's hearts in jeopardy and caused pain. It's all I seem to do sometimes.
I don't mean to hurt people, at least not in this fashion. When I act maliciously and with intent, you will know it. There will be no question. But I do hurt them, intent or no.
Impulse. Action. Reaction. I don't think things through. And then, quite often, unable to deal with the consequences I give into impuse and wander away to leave someone else to pick up the pieces I left behind.
If I must admit it...
I am a creature of whims. A creature of impulse. I do what feels right, right now. I rarely think of consequences or what the outcome of my actions will be, though the no consequences prompt of two weeks ago forced me to think about what consequences might be of an impulsive action I was considering.
I, of course, followed said prompt up quickly with an impulsive action, the consequences of which I gave no thought to whatsoever. Luckily, that one turned out...well, though there are and will be consequences which I will eventually have to face but which others are having to deal with at this time. Still, I hold out hope that 'twill all end well and bring all involved a measure of happiness that has ofttimes been lacking in all of our lives.
But that is beside the point and doesn't speak to what makes the trait so bad. Other recent impulsive actions have not boded so well toward a happy ending. I do things that seem good, even beneficial at the time. I don't listen to those who advise against it. I breeze through their counsel and do as I please and then...people get hurt. Or the potential exists for people to get hurt. People who are innocent of any wrongdoing and deserve only good things in their lives, who deserve to be cherished and adored...and I sweep them up and into my world and take as I please and then...then I realize that by the very act of doing so, others have been hurt and I have put all of these people's hearts in jeopardy and caused pain. It's all I seem to do sometimes.
I don't mean to hurt people, at least not in this fashion. When I act maliciously and with intent, you will know it. There will be no question. But I do hurt them, intent or no.
Impulse. Action. Reaction. I don't think things through. And then, quite often, unable to deal with the consequences I give into impuse and wander away to leave someone else to pick up the pieces I left behind.
